Just lost another friend to cancer... and she was doing so well on her third remission too!

Dammit... I hate the scourge of cancer, and the death of friends way before their time!!! This shit is getting way too frequent lately, and I’m getting tired of it! Damned near ready to stick a barrel under my chin and get it over with than put up with any more of this shit!

Life sucks, and I want out!!! The bottle of whiskey I just drank didn’t help a damned bit, so screw that too!!! Nothing but a waste of money...

Sorry for your loss Bill. Sucks ass.

While I am assuming (hoping) you are just venting a bit, your talk about ending your own life is concerning.

Please consider talking to a grief-counselor. I wish you comfort and goodness for 2018.

Yeah... just venting.

Sorry for your losses.

I get it. Your whole OP, I get it.

Bill, trying to find the right words. The only peace and comfort there is especially now is to give your life to the Lord Jesus right now and ask Him to come into your heart. He will give you a peace that surpasses all understanding plus knowing you will be in Glory with Him forever. I've had cancer and I have lost my son back in 2008. That would drive a person to " throw in the towel". But the only way my wife and I made it was the peace we had because we had "GOD in our lives. This is not some religious mambo jumbo stuff to make you feel good. I feel for you brother. Yes, life sucks a lot of time, but...

Bill. When, and if you see fit to do so, please tell us of your friend.

Death may steal away good people, and those we love, but it cannot steal the goodness of them, nor their memories.

Bless others with the richness of her friendship.

I am sorry for your loss.

ds1962, my words betray me at this time, but I have given my life to Jesus... many years ago. I live in service to Him the best I can, but I also battle many chronic ailments that only seem to multiply as I age, and depression is one of them. I’m okay most days, and I handle the pain in my neck with a shot or two of whiskey at bedtime since narcotics are a no-go on a regular basis. But when a friend who I thought was doing much better suddenly is reported dead from her cancer, and my brother has terminal cancer so I know what I facing with him.... I don’t know, I just kinda lost it last night! Sorry to worry folks!

Different things hit us different ways.

What used to get me depressed was being stuck in a job that I hated and I couldn't find a new one. I couldn't just up and quit as I have a mortgage on an upside down house. I thought I'd have to work until the day I died. I know of three people who did that, never enjoyed any retirement. I now your depression is about others and mine is about me. But depression is depression.

But I think we're put in a dark place for a reason. Not out of spite, not as punishment. But to get you through to the other side. When I finally found a new job after 8 years, it turned out to be worse. In the old job, the work itself was the problem, in the new job, the boss was the problem. I quit after six months. But I found out that my 401k in the old job in the 8 years that I toiled there put me over the edge of being able come up with a plan that I don't have to work anymore. I stopped having to work at age 59, totally different from what I had thought when I was going through my depression.

Yes, you might find yourself walking through the valley of the shadow of death. But remember, you're walking through it to get to the other side. Though the waters may come, you will not be overwhelmed. I know how the waters can get scary but keep your wits and remember: you will not be overwhelmed.

Bill,

I'm very sorry to hear about your friend and her battle with cancer. It's a long, hard battle and people are fighting it every day.
It's no comfort perhaps but every day countless researchers, doctors, nurses, other people are conducting trials and hopefully coming closer & closer to a cure.

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Thanks for sharing Bill. My prayers are with you and keep perserving one day at a time. That's how we make it with the grace of God.